I sometimes wonder what happened to me. One day i was your average 16 year old girl. Next day I was schizophrenic and in the psych ward! It seemed to happen overnight!
It started out with me keep getting in trouble at school. I would do things the teachers didnt understand. It got bad, i got suspended.
I got tested for something, i am not sure what. So i had to go to my town’s high school and do a bunch of puzzles. I never got the results.
But i got taken out of my current school and enrolled in a therapeutic school.
I went to my first shrink and got put on Paxil. I did not like him, so we looked for someone else.
I met Dr A. He and i met at the local hopistal.
He decided I should go to Arbor Fuller, a psych ward for adolescents.
I sat in the back seat on the way to the psych ward. A flood of emotions rushed through my body.
I was excited!
as we got closer, excitement turned into scared. I grabbed my bags and followed DAd into a BIG building.
I was VERY scared.
But after a week there, things were not better. I went back to school for a few weeks, but my meds were just not perfect. so i went to my 2nd psych ward.
I was no longer just a 16 year old girl. I was a 16 year old girl, with a mental illness.
It was scary taking meds because they came with all sorts of side effects.
Weight gain, drooling, heart palpitations, anxiety… It was not fun searching for the right meds for me. It took a lot of hard work!
But today. I am a 29 year old with mental illness, BUT i have not been locked up in 14 months!!!