I can actually remember some of my psychotic episodes! I wish i couldnt because i always have flash backs..but at least i can share my story.
I remember once in the Christian School i went to, I was hallucinating that the teachers were all trying to kill me. So they locked me in a room with just me and my guidance counselor. I raced around the room terrified because i felt trapped. I was a chicken with its head cut off!
Mrs A watched me. She didnt help, just watched.
I wanted out. NOW.
I started to cry and shake. i fell to the floor and screamed.
My Dad finally came and picked me up. i was feeling terrible. It took awhile to get me into the car. I was so scared!
Everything and everyone was against me!
I cried the whole way to the hopistal.
When i got there, they evaluated me. I got admitted that night.
A night i could never forget. Seeing the tears in DAd’s eyes broke my heart.