Im not sure if my parents are proud of me or not. I dont blame them if they are not. I was never the daughter they deserved.
What kind of person would want a child with schizophrenia? A daughter who got locked up over and over?
I have been in therapy since i was little.
I feel badly for them.
But how can i change that? I mean, i am stuck on meds for LIFE.
Im sure one day i will be locked up again, just a feeling.
I just wish i knew if they were proud. I dont want to ask though.
I am scared to have children of my own, because i dont want them to suffer with mental illness too…