I consider my pillow to be a friend. It catches my tears when i cry at night and comforts me when i am tired.
Lately i have been crying a lot at nighttime, when i am alone. I am not sure why.
I have been having really bad urges to cut my belly. I literally pray that i wont.
I get close enough by touching the nail scissors to my flesh.
If i had the courage, i would press it. And i would bleed.
But i dont want that! All my scars finally healed and i dont want any more.
I need better coping skills. I have had SOO many classes on coping skills, i should be a pro by now.