I am scared to live. I am not living my life to the fullest because of it.
All day i think about what could go wrong. Death, fires, car crashes, kidnap, rape..
I have a routine of crying every night before bed.
I usually grab my nail scissors to cut, but i am strong enough to talk myself out of it.
I dont want to be scared. I still cant take a shower because of the acid in the water. I want to overcome my fears, but its so hard!
I am just frightened. Something could go wrong at any moment.
I could die in 20 minutes and that is scary!
Especially my heart. I have tachycardia and my heart races for quick sprints.
When that happens, im like “This is it, i am dying”
I sometimes dont want to leave the house, the world is a scary place!!