I am not sure why i dont like telling my family when i am hearing voices, but i dont mind blogging about it.
I guess its because i love them, and dont want them to see me differently.
The only times i really share when i am hearing voices is those nights i end up in the ER.
I just feel ashamed. I feel like a freak, i mean think about it. I am a 28 year old girl with people living in my HEAD! I count non stop and I just dont fit in.
Usually i am more positive. but i am getting SO tired of living the way i do.
I want to not hear voices, not count, not be paranoid and not be scared.
I am scared of life which is a shame.
I fear death daily, thats Always on my mind, even when i am having a good day!