The three biggest fears in had in life were: Graduation Day, Jury Duty, and my wedding.
Well, i graduated. I am proud of that. I cant do jury duty because of my mental illness and as for a wedding. I will NEVER get married. I will date and get close, but NEVER get married. There are a few reasons why i DONT want to get married. #1 i hate when all the attention is on me. #2 marriages dont last. #3 i like to not have to answer to a partner.
I have other fears too, but those were the ones i have had since i was in 6th grade
Some fears i have now:
Acid in the water that comes out of the shower. Im scared i will crash the car by taking the wheel from whomever is driving. I fear the pharmacists will have a bad day and take it out on me by giiving me a pill that kills you. I fear that when two people are standing in front of one another, they both take a step to the right, then the left, then the left then the right. i fear by doing so, you would be trapped in that spot for all of eternity. THAT scares me a lot.
Of course i fear death.
I fear i will kidnap someone
i am scared i will hurt someone with out thinking.
I fear my meds will have deadly side effects which is why i HATE when i get med changes.
i think of these fears daily, but i wish i didnt. I dont want to waste my life by worrying 24/7. I know ppl say to distract myself. But how long will that last?