Sometimes when i leave a room, in public, not at home, i am very aware of my surroundings. I look both ways and make sure nothing looks suspicious.
It is exhausting, being aware 24/7. i want to just not worry. Thats my goal. I want to stop being scared and worried and paranoid about everything.
I feel like i am being watched alllllll the time. I know the spirits are watching me, they are in my room a lot too. I cant actually see them in my room, i can see them in the sky but not my room.
I am never alone. There is either voices, or Cereal, or the spirits…i feel self contentious when i get dressed or take a bath. I just feel their presence.
I just want to live a normal life. I feel my life is not going the way i planned. I never went to college. I dont have a bf, i have an 8th grade education,
I just feel bad about myself in general. i am not pretty. I am chunky….
Whatever, i will just keep going and one day things will be gooder.