Whats the worst thing that could happen to me?
Well. I could over dose on my medications. I could take the steering wheel from whomever is driving and crash. I could kill someone and end up in jail, forever. I could kidnap someone, i could set the house on fire, i could poison my family, i could stand in the middle of the road and get squished, i could get burnt by the acid in my shower, i could choke myself, i could get my head blown up by my hair drier. The pharmacy could give me the wrong medication, i could end up back in the psych ward, i could scratch out my eyes, i could poison myself, i could cut so deep i bleed to death, i could burn my esophagus with a simple aspirin, i could do so much.
I am scared. Scared that i will act upon one of these thoughts that are in my head 24/7.
I hate having these thoughts. But what can i do to stop them?