I get so scared of my thoughts. What if my thoughts become actions? What if i did take that mug of HOT coffee and dump it on my cousins head!
I am at the stage where i know right from wrong, but i have a feeling, a bad feeling, that wont last forever.
I have been acting upon the little things voices tell me to do, how do i know if one day, i listen to the BAD thoughts.
I could kill someone, myself, kidnap, set fire, steal… I wish my mind were different. I really hate the brain i was given.
I feel that i should be enjoying life which i am not. Not to the fullest at least.
I have a good life, yes. No doubt.
But when the voices get involved, it just sucks.