I feel like crying for no reason. I am not sad. I am not depressed. Sometimes a girl just has to cry.
I am listening to music and its giving me flashbacks. Its that same dang song! White Houses by Vanessa Carlton.
I listened to that song over 30 times on the ride to my very first psych ward.
I think back to when i was 17….in and out of psych wards monthly, I was small and scared.
Everyday was different and i never knew what emotion i would be feeling each day. I was sad, hyper, psychotic… i had dozens of voices at the same time in my head.
I talked to books and i talked to my stapler.
I dont know why i keep playing this song….. but since i am blogging about, it i am feeling better.