I am not sure how I am feeling today. A little sad, kinda happy, good mood, lazy.
My Dad left the country for vacation. I miss him. Even though I don’t see him often, I like it better when he is in the state.
I really had to talk myself out of cutting last night. I had such an urge, but, I didn’t. And that makes me proud.
I am stronger then I thought I was.
I hate my body. I am fat and ugly. I need to lose weight, so I exercise. Problem is, I am always hungry. I try so hard to eat healthy, but sometimes I cheat.
I don’t know if my meds still make me hungry. My old ones did for SURE so that was no help.
I gained so much weight since I was 16 and first put on meds.
I hate looking in the mirror. It depresses me. I don’t like the reflection.
I just wish I could love myself, but I really cant.