I have been doing really well lately. But on the inside, I am a little lonely. I don’t have many friends my age. The ones I do have live far away. I have friends that are a lot older then me, Bill, Diane, Terresa, and Tracy, but I cant do makeovers and have sleepovers with them.
I wish I had more friends. I have about 4 currently: CC, Krystal, Ashley and Pokie.
Today I feel depressed. I am not in the Christmas spirit at all. I have BIG BIG fears that one of my loved ones is going to die soon. Its just a bad feeling, and I hope it don’t come true.
I sorta feel like crying. I want to curl up in a ball under my blankets and cry.
Its just one of those days, My Mom calls it a bad med day. When nothing goes right and everything goes wrong.
I also had a temptation to cut today. But I didn’t, don’t worry.
I have been watching YouTube videos all day hoping it will cheer me up, but its just not working.
So right now I am gonna go distract myself with something. I will blog again later to let you know how I am doing xoxox